VoxSentia

Red bull does not give you wings

I had a can of red bull at work today. I just wanted to see how it tastes and also to see the effects. I drank half, felt nothing; drank the whole can, felt nothing. I waited half hour and felt nothing. Well, about two hours after when I got home, I was feeling extremely anxious and could not contain it. I was worrying about everything and anything. I have anxiety and I advise people with anxiety not to drink red bull. I'm glad I didn't drink Rockstar instead which contains twice the caffeine. I was sooo anxious that I didn't know what to do with myself.

On another note, today would have been a year since my first date with Kevin had we not broken up. I'm still a little sad about it. But that's life.

Happy Hour at work

I went to another happy hour at work on Friday. I try to show up at these functions because I think it's good to socialize with co-workers. Anyway, I had one Smirnoff Ice, but didn't end up at the emergency room this time. I think I'm just allergic if I hadn't had enough food to eat before drinking. Also, quantity matters too. But one small drink seems to be OK. Hopefully...

New found respect for Bel Air Presbyterian

So I went to church at 6:00PM as usual as I do every sunday. But this week, I was a little surprised by what I learned. I really like Bel Air Presbyterian church, but I always thought of it as a church that was very white, conservative, and presbyterian(nothing wrong with that, but I'm just saying there isn't much variety). You know, your quitessential nice white neighbors who have seemingly perfect families. But today, the message was about God using broken people for his ministry and indeed he does at that church. There was a 10 min short video clip of 3 people's stories about how they came to know God and I was impressed. One of them was a porn star. She was in the porn industry for 6 years and she recently decided to turn to God. She was abused as a child and has a lot of problems which is one of the reasons why she turned to porn, but her testimony was really amazing. I felt more respect for her as well as Bel Air for not having only cookie cutter nice people but people of all walks of life. Apparently she goes to group meetings every tuesdays and brings new people from the porn industry that wants out. I was already thinking about joining the Tuesday night meetings, but her story is pushing me to definitely show up. The message and these people's testimonies were truly inspiring. God indeed uses broken people for great purposes.

I'm allergic to alcohol

I went to a company happy hour on Thursday in Santa Monica at Olde King's Head and had some cider/beer. I guess my meds and the alcohol didn't mix too well. I had a major heart burn and an allergic reaction. I also had unstoppable heart-palpitations and felt like my body was beat up. My condition wasn't improving even after several hours so I went to the emergency room. The palpitations were so bad that I even asked for an EKG. Well, it turns out, my heart is just fine. My blood pressure is just fine. I wasn't going to have cardiac arrest like I thought I was going to. I wasn't even really poisoned by the alcohol either. I just had a little bit of allergic reaction where it caused me me to be physically very ill. So, I learned my lesson. No more alcohol for me. And no need to go to emergency rooms anymore with EKGs. It was just anxiety.

3rd Street Promenade - Santa Monica

I love the joys of working in Santa Monica. Our current office is located in one of the buildings directly above 3rd Street Promenade. I love going outside when taking breaks or going to lunch.  I would do store sight-seeing during my break. I went into Z-gallery and Bebe during my stretch break and I think it's great. There is also a food court on 3rd street as well as a food court in the mall.

The only problem is we're moving soon. We're moving to Main street, which is still nice but I think I like the bustling life of 3rd Street much better.

Today, I just walked right on over to the beach to take a short walk. I love it.

Who else has a sweeter office setting than I do? I think none.

Volunteering at a hospice

I've been trying to figure out ways I can give back to society. I was browsing through Craigslist under Volunteering and found an opportunity to volunteer at a hospice. Perhaps if I am caring for someone much more needy than I am, I will finally feel that my life isn't really that bad. Some of the problems that I have may seem more insignificant compared to people who have terminal illnesses. I've been going to church for quite some time, I should put to use what I hear at church to practice. It would be a great exercise in faith.

globetrotting

I am currently watching an interview with Ann Curry and she's talking about her globetrotting especially to warn torn, poverty stricken third world countries. She was also talking about Angelina Jolie changing so much from seeing the suffering of these people. I would love to go on a mission trip or some sort of a trip to any one of those third world countries. I think it would do wonders to change my perspective on life. I would finally see how easy I have it.

Simpsons...just eh

I went and watched "The Simpsons" movie with a friend and didn't love it. It was just eh...

A little dissapointing, but it wasn't terrible. I just felt like I was watching an hour Simpsons special on TV.

Next up, "Bourne Ultimatum." That movie should be better.

Nouveau Riche

Tonight I went to a toastmasters meeting. I gave my second speech. I no longer get nervous giving speeches. I think it's because I'm used to the people there now. Three other people gave speeches as well, but none of them used notes of any kind. Granted these other people have been members of the club a lot longer, I am amazed at there speech abilities. They practically memorize their 5-7 min speeches or they just talk for that long on the fly. I hope I can get to that point where I would not need note cards or notes. I still stand behind the lectern and use papers to read off of. But then again, it's only been my second speech.

One of the members belongs to a group called Nouveau Riche. It's an investors' club. He invited me to come to an investors meeting. There are supposed to be many many wealthy real estate investors who do not have regular jobs because they made it in real estate. Maybe I'll learn something. It's always nice to get mentorship from people who have already succeeded. Apparently, people make money in all markets in real estate. Right now, foreclosures are supposed to be something people can make off of even though the real estate market has cooled a bit.

I'll see what the club is all about. At the very least, I'll gain some education.